Mental Restraint

Mental Restraint

Sometimes I find it so problematic to restrain my mental thoughts. The thoughts I want to transform into actions just to satisfy my irrational anger’s hunger. It would be so easy and so ‘human’ just to let my flesh kick in and do what the f#*% it wants and not even worry about conquering AGAPE or the consequences of my actions. I could speak ever little dirty fucking word that ever crossed my mind without considering the feelings of others just because their actions do not consider mine. I could unleash all the hellish pandemonium my flesh craves if I really wanted to. But then again that’s not who I am, nor is it whom I desire to be. Sometimes you have to put your feelings aside and be better then you actually want too.

Selfish people do selfish things. I don’t think I will ever understand the motivations behind their actions, nor do I want to. Some may argue that we’re all selfish in our own ways but under what circumstances is it okay to be selfish for the motivation of self-fulfillment, when you are hurting others? It is never okay! Here I am always attempting to be the better person, call it what you want, but conquering AGAPE is probably one of the biggest accomplishments I will ever achieve in life. To just forgive someone no matter what harm they bestowed unto you, what hurt they caused you, and not hold it against them is some bottomless profound shit. In all honesty when one is hurt, it’s hard not to be angry with the person who hurt you. You want them to feel the pain you felt, hurt the way you hurt, perhaps even worse. If only I wasn’t trying to be like Jesus.

Too forgive someone who hates you for whatever reason, disrespects you, cheats on you, kills your mom, kills your family, etc., without holding it against them, feeling no resentment whatsoever is on some Jesus level of mentality. That’s the type of journey I’m traveling on. Weak minded and weakened fleshed humans are the obstacles in my path, and they make my journey so painstakingly difficult. On the surface, I know these obstacles are merely tests; tests to uncover my will power, the strength of my mentality, the depth of my convictions, and all that I am capable of becoming. In a sense, these people that are ‘only human’, are imprudent temptations to influence my mentality to make me want to be like them, but I’m so much better than that and I desire to be more than ‘only human.’ So I put aside my pride and my feelings and remind myself that people are who they are. I must accept them the way they are because they are what they are, they do not know any better, although in all actuality they do know right from wrong. I’ll just continue on my journey still loving and forgiving. The seeds these foolish people plant will bear the reward in which they will unpleasantly harvest. I hope the seed of my love will sprout roots in your heart and grow. It’s so easy to hate what you no longer wish to love. Hate is just a burning fire that feeds off of love and other emotions to eventually consume you.

" The love will remain through the strains of the heart's pain unyielding and forever true." -Arielle

What to Expect from Me

I'll keep this short, perhaps this is the second post I should have created after the introduction. Don't expect anything from me. Definitely don't expect me to consistently write my thoughts about a certain topic. I'm a random thinker and my thoughts aren't always in one place. Maybe I feel like writing about love & relationships one day, the next I might want to talk about black holes, quantum physics, & dimensions.

I'm a universal thinker. I don't limit myself in that area. So don't expect me to. This is just a given opportunity to experience a few thoughts from another being you never thought existed.

Love

For whatever reason I'm tackling the mushy topic of love. I suppose because it's on my mind. It's so misconstrued and abused by others. A major issue concerning the topic, that I will address, is that a lot of people don't really know what love is, and if they do, they limit it. That is, they don't know how to love unconditionally. I'll briefly define the four different types of love, but the major focus will be on Agápe, as I believe it is the most important.

I suppose we can start off with the different types of love.

• Storge
• Philia
• Eros
• Agápe

Storge is the greek word for natural love. (i.e.)The love that an animal would have for their young or a parent for their child. It's also love between family members.

Philia is the greek for friendship love. Aristotle created three different types of categories for friendships. (But I will not discuss it here.)

Eros is more of a romantic love that does not have to be sexual in nature. It tends to be more passionate and more desirable.

Agápe... Agape is known as God's love, unconditional love, and in my opinion is the best love of all. I believe that the bible best defines it, if you don't already know you can find it in 1 Corinthians 13.

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (Excerpt from http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1+Corinthians+13&version=KJV)

For those that still don't get it...it's quite simple. Love does not envy, it's not envious. People envy and some people are envious.

Love is not proud. People are. Love is not prideful. People are.

Love is just love. Love doesn't carry all the extra characteristics that people do.

My Opinion

I believe that if everyone acquired Agápe love, the world would be a much better place. I believe this because if we, as human beings, acquired Agápe Love, we wouldn't keep a record of wrongs. That means once someone has done wrong against us, we automatically forgive them. We wouldn't keep any grudges and we wouldn't keep bringing up the past action of that wrong doing.

Love is not self seeking which means that love is not selfish and love doesn't do for it's own benefit. If we all acquired Agápe love for one another I believe that we would be more concerned with others and not act out of self benefits.

If we all had Agápe love, you wouldn't have to worry about anyone busting the windows out your car or anything of that nature. You wouldn't have to worry about someone disliking you because of what you have or what you do, or someone envying you for any reason at all.

You most definitely wouldn't have to worry about evil doings.

I think I reached my point. Agápe love is so difficult to acquire. Especially for me, as a person I hold grudges and honestly I think I could hold on to one for a lifetime. Holding grudges is something that I have been working on for some time. I won't stop until I conquer myself and become the better person that I want to become. I will acquire Agápe love for everyone one day.

Limiting Love...love doesn't have any expectations.

I have seen people do this a lot. They limit love. People limit their love by putting it under a condition and/or having expectations. Married couples and couples in general are guilty of this action and they may not even know it. People limit their love by putting a condition on it or just by having expectations. I'll give you a few examples.

For instance, when you ask someone how much they love you. That's like asking them to put an end onto something that should have no ending. Or by bribing someone into doing something or by requesting an action that they must complete in order to prove their love to you. A classic cliché example would be a young man wanting his girlfriend to have sex with him in order to prove that she loves him. That's putting love under a condition and a limitation. It's definitely NOT Agápe.

If you want to love without any limits and unconditionally then stop creating limits and putting your love under a condition...it's simple as that. Don't allow a condition to define how much someone loves you.

I know that a person's actions define them sometimes better then their words do, but know and understand what Agápe Love is.

"Love has no expectations and no other desires but to fulfill itself."
(Original quote "Love has no Desires but to fulfill itself."- Kahlil Gibran)

Introduction to My Thoughts

Didn't think that I would be sharing my thoughts with the world anytime soon. Always been skeptical of doing so because I feel like my thoughts are sacred. So I just kept them where they were safe...that is until now.

Keeping my thoughts locked up in my head prevents me from achieving ultimate freedom. I can't allow anything to hinder me from any of my lifetime goals.

Not really sure about sharing all of my thoughts. Majority of the world couldn't handle them.

Who knows? Guess I'll give the world a little dose at a time. After all, I don't want anyone to O/D. :-)